4:28

i'm bored.
i scroll thru my phone.
my mind doesn't see names.


i don't even think that's his number anymore.
he's at work.
he lives far away.
i've ignored too many of his calls to call him now.
he's always bull shittin.
he's friends with my ex.
he just wants sex.
we don't get down like that.
i'm still waiting on him to call me back.
i WILL NOT call him.
my ex.
my bd.
my friend's man.
i'm not THAT desperate yet.


despite my calls yesterday
there is nobody in my phone i wanna hang out with.
i'm not comfortable with anyone
like i am with my ex.
god.
this is fucking hard.
i need something to do.
i wish my girls weren't so damn busy.